This is first post. This was my first post from my other blogger reposted so you know a little about me …
Well clears throat… Here goes , as you can tell I love music. It is how I cope with life. I mean what would life be without music. It universal, it how I store my memories. How I tone out , and dull the bad in life. I love all types of music. I mean all types of music too … LOL. My kids never stood a chance of not liking music, they were exposed to everything too.
I kind of bounce around sorry … but that is me ! Speaking of my family. I have two great kids. Well I say kids one is fixing to be an adult… All I can say … Damn where did that time go. Well getting back to them. I have a 17-year-old daughter, and a 12-year-old son. I don’t see the daughter much. My son I have every other week . She is very angry at me for how I raised her. All I can say I did the best I could do, and try to be there. I still love her , just have to wait ,untill she goes through this phase and realize I was human! Funny how life goes around. Then there is my son ! Oh, he is a character, he is funny, attention hog , sweet, smart … and yes like his dad a smart ass. At times he a hand full. But no matter what, when he is around it is mine happiest time. I am really lucky I have two great kids that are great people. By the way they know about me being bi . They have accepted that , they don’t always understand it… But they have accepted me for me …. I was out to my ex 8 years before we divorced. She accepted it, but it cause a whole lot of pain for her. Which is the only reason I regret coming out and staying with her. When I came out I should of left then. But hell that neither here nor there. It did have a part of our divorced , but mainly we divorced because we never really had nothing other than the kids that tie us together. We were two people who were married , that live like we were not married … I mean the first two years was great , but some where over there years .. we just drifted apart … not that we needed much help. I was married 18 years.
Me being bi
I love being bi , although I still fight it …. I mean I like women … But I love men … lol
It took me a very long time to deal with me being bi …from thinking I was mentally ill, hiding it ,accepting it , ok thinking society is fuck up not me ! Still there is some big issues to get through like. I would love to be to gather with both sexes at the same time …. in a loving relationship . Odds are it will never happen. Lol ,hell I couldn’t even handle one person. I am ok with this …. I know I can live with out the female counterpart… Though I crave the male counterpart. LOl ok I know some of you are thinking so your gay … yeah right …. just because I can live without the female doesn’t mean I still not attracted to them or desire them … just means I don’t have to have one ..or want one on my arm .. always say unless she got a damn good lucky man , I don’t want her . I wish I would have came out sooner . I lost a lot of time … but then I would be the person I am today. Well that is my first post ….. thanks … I will learn how to do other things here too . Just give me time …..